Lost in Transition

There are times I feel extremely connected to God.  I wake up feeling close to Him and go to bed feeling close to Him.  My conversations are more focused on how He is working in me and through me.  I feel like I am walking on clouds.

There are times I feel lost.  I feel like I have lost my connection to God.  In these lost moments I often vacillate between feeling that I have taken a wrong turn and walked away from God or feeling like God has turned away from me or at least taken a break from me.  I feel like I am trudging through sludge.

I am in the middle of a life transition.  I am looking for a job and looking for the thing I want to do in life that fulfills the passions God has placed within me.  There are days in the transition where I know God is molding and shaping me and there are days when I think He might have forgotten I still need to have a way to support my family and myself.  There are those days in the clouds and there are those days that are in the sludge.  It is tough going from one to the other in a matter of days, sometimes hours.  A door will crack open and then get slammed shut.  It’s frustrating and it’s scary at times.  Yet, I still hold on to hope that God is planning something really, really big that will blow me away.

A couple of weeks ago, I was at a talk given by Erwin McManus.  He is a Pastor for a church in California and he said something that has permeated my thoughts.  “Do you think the God who imagined you before you were born has quit imagining you now?”  

“Do you think the God who imagined you before you were born has quit imaging you now?”

Ephesians 2:10 says, “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”  

I think about Erwin’s comments and I think about God’s words and it makes it harder to get down emotionally.  It still happens.  I am human and not as strong as I want to be but when I think about the God who imagined me, who formed me, who created me to do good works, it sure is hard to feel disconnected from God.  

I may be a little lost in my transition from job to job, but God’s word tells me I (and you) am not lost from His sight, from His mind, from His heart, from His plans.  He still imagines me now for what He is planning for tomorrow.  Hallelujah.

Grace and peace.

Jeff Jones

Decatur, Texas