I listened as a fellow-minister bared his soul. Years of struggle, hurt and disappointment had woven anguish and disillusionment into his once beautiful and sweet spirit. As he pieced together the story of a recent ministry experience,
my heart ached for him and for the church that sat in the sound-proof room
largely ignorant of what was happening behind closed doors. I also ached because he described a scene that many of us in ministry - teachers, elders, ministry leaders and ministers - have experienced on more than one occasion. In fact it’s something that too many Christians can relate to in some respect.
“We talk about God, kingdom, ministry, evangelism and
serving people like a company selling brooms,” he lamented. He continued, “We sit in committees, discuss
ministry “objectives” and begin our elder’s meetings with prayer only to
quickly turn from the “presence of God” to nothing short of gamesmanship in the
name of seeking first His kingdom and His righteousness. We sit three feet from each other but we are
really miles apart. If the church could
see us in “action” they would convulse. Pride, arrogance and subterfuge hang in the
air like a bad aroma.” Then he said, “I
think all of our talk about God and what’s best for the body of Christ is nothing
short of a delusion that we accept as okay because our hearts are hard and our
ears are deaf to the true call of God. We
talk of God but we know nothing of him. Didn’t
the apostle John say, “If you can’t love your brother who have seen, how can
you love God whom you have not seen?”
Perhaps you have heard a similar story. Perhaps you experienced one and lived to tell
about it. To be people who claim to be
involved in the greatest human endeavor on the planet, too often, we look and
sound like spiritual misfits who have forgotten what happened at our baptism.
As he told his story, my mind kept turning to Jesus’ words
in Matthew 20:25-28:
But Jesus called them to him and
said, “You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them,
and their great ones exercise authority over them. It shall not be so
among you. But whoever would be great among you must be your servant, and
whoever would be first among you must be your slave, even as
the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his
life as a ransom for many.”
Simple…right? “It
shall not be so among you,” Jesus said. If you want to be heard…if you want to lead…if
you want to speak a convincing word about the kingdom whether it be outside or inside the
body of Christ, you must be a servant. A slave!
That’s what the Son of Man came to do. God in the flesh washed feet. He got low.
He laid his life – literally! – on the line.
I ask my friend if his people knew the conversation Jesus had with his disciples in the Matthew text. “By heart,” he said.
We know a lot of things by heart that are not “in our hearts.” The spiritual horror show he was living through was not a matter of knowing the word. Sadly, it was an habitual and conscious choice to circumvent good process and the Lordship of Jesus Christ in the interest of lesser interests parading as what is best for a particular situation. “The vast majority of the junk you are experiencing”, I remarked, “is because your people have tied their worship to an hour on Sunday - if that - and have no concept of worship as a daily experience including and especially when they meet to discuss matters of the church." Paul conveyed a similar sentiment in 1 Corinthians 3:1-3.
We know a lot of things by heart that are not “in our hearts.” The spiritual horror show he was living through was not a matter of knowing the word. Sadly, it was an habitual and conscious choice to circumvent good process and the Lordship of Jesus Christ in the interest of lesser interests parading as what is best for a particular situation. “The vast majority of the junk you are experiencing”, I remarked, “is because your people have tied their worship to an hour on Sunday - if that - and have no concept of worship as a daily experience including and especially when they meet to discuss matters of the church." Paul conveyed a similar sentiment in 1 Corinthians 3:1-3.
We concluded our phone call.
We prayed and I encouraged him a bit more. In these situations you would like to say, “Just take a spiritual
aspirin and it will be better in the morning.” That’s never been my experience. No. It’s
spiritual “transformation” that we need.
Jesus set the bar of excellence a longtime ago. Any congregation, any leadership, any
committee any “anything” that wants to do work in the body of Christ that is
noble and healthy will meditate on, pray over, and drive deep into their hands
and feet the words of Jesus in Matthew 20.
Jesus spoke them a few days before he went to the
cross. He must have been serious about
them. We should be, too. And, when we do, listening, respect,
kindness, service, honesty and genuine love will reign in our midst as those
who once again remember that our deliberations are at the feet of the One who
said, “Be like me.”
I hope it helps my friend’s situation. It’s our only viable alternative.
Father, imprint onto our hearts the truth and blessing of
the Son’s words. Save us from our pride
and self-centeredness. Help us watch
over our hearts with all diligence so that envy, anger and maliciousness will
not be allowed to rule over us. May we
respond to each other with hearts that are full of the grace of God. We own nothing. We acknowledge that you own everything. Thank you for allowing us to be a part of
what you are doing through the gospel every day. May our words and actions be a joy in your
sight now and always. Amen.
Randy Daugherty
Powerful post. I just spent a day at ACU's Conference on Peace as a panelist. I listened to a story of a minister burned out on ministry because of the conflict he experienced in churches. Thankfully, ACU has people ready and willing to help bring peace where there are troubles. Unfortunately, people have to realize they need the help first. Too often, egos and personal desires get in the way of real kingdom work.
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