This world likes to wield the power
of eutopian ideals over and inside our heads, like we don’t have reason to
enjoy what we’ve got now. My thoughts jump from this--now--to heaven, never
formulating thoughts of possible eutopias in between, because when people try
to force you to dream up perfection it can be rather off-putting.
I know of no “eutopia,” in the
truest sense of the word, but we live in “utopia,” I think. Our reference point
for beauty is airbrushed photos, sliced and stretched wealthy people who live
lives that I can’t even imagine--the most intricate and extravagant and painted
up. So I don’t know where their beauty is coming from--the person or the
alterations. And I don’t have any major alterations, so where does my beauty come from? Probably “no-place.”
Sometimes I want to turn off my cell
phone or ignore text messages, delete my Facebook account and never check my
email. But that makes people angry. They get offended. Sometimes I just need
some peace. Complete and total solitude. Is there any place we can go to get
that, without repercussions that evoke guilt? Nope. “No-place.”
There is no way to banish
insecurities or the belief that we are inadequate or that we should be
achieving greater or making more money or losing more weight. I can’t, because
there’s always a girl walking by weighing 103 pounds and an unbelievably
tanned, muscular man strutting just behind. And then their bodies are always on
billboards. There are always useless Louis Vuitton bags doing their song and
dance in a store window. Yes, they are useless, but such a necessity. Then the girl from the billboard is carrying
one so why shouldn’t I carry one too?
I can’t banish the thoughts. They
invade every corner of my mind--not always the same ones and usually not all at
the same time, but there is always at least one floating around. There is
“no-place” for my thoughts to travel and hide from inadequacy, no place where
they will not encounter that from which they are fleeing. They flee from our
misjudged and wrongly created eutopias that are not what they claim to be. They
flee from “eutopia” and end up wandering around in “utopia.”
Within a utopian mindset, knowledge
is pleasure and pleasures are happiness. Within this mindset, we believe that
God created us for the purpose of giving us total earthly happiness. Utopians
believe that genuine happiness can be found in earthly pleasures. Scripture
says ultimate happiness is inherent in the nature of God. That is what we must
pursue for true happiness and fulfillment and pleasure.
“How
happy is the man
who
does not follow the advice of the wicked,
or
take the path of sinners,
or
join a group of mockers!
Instead,
his delight is in the Lord’s instruction,
and
he meditates on it day and night.
He
is like a tree planted beside streams of water
that
bears its fruit in season
and
whose leaf does not wither.
Whatever
he does prospers” (Psalm 1:1-3).
Father,
May
we find pleasure in your instruction
in
the strength of your salvation
in
your undying compassion
in
your loving mercy
in
your relentless grace
in
your concern for our
transcendent
joy.
We
love you.
Amen.
Erin
E. Daugherty, Abilene Christian University
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